Have I ever told you that my life is jam-packed busy? If I haven’t, I’m telling you now. It has been a rough couple of months. Everything is insane. Every facet of life is brimming with busyness. I think I did write about it a few weeks back. Don’t get me wrong. I’m accomplishing mounds of goals. Everything is moving forward in a positive direction. Mike and I have big plans for the upcoming months (a.k.a house-buying). Still, sometimes, you have to slow down, breathe, and remember the who, what, and why of your journey.
Somewhere along the way, I think I lost a bit of it. I forgot exactly why we started this journey and what we were trying to achieve. I found myself so wrapped up in the present (rare, for me), that I completely let the past go and kinda ignored the future.
So, here I am, back where it all started – the place where I’ve put it all on the line for the world to see. I love writing, and since moving to Colorado, I haven’t had much time to do it. And that’s bad. Writing has always kept me grounded.
I remember before my Air Force journey began, I was in a job I hated. Every morning, I would wake up and write. If I didn’t get my morning writing in, the rest of the day was a struggle for me. I was less tired then because I worked less, but that job was just as mentally draining as my Air Force job is physically. If I was in a sour mood that evening, Mike would say, “You didn’t get to blog this morning, did you?” Even he could tell the effect my writing/blogging had on my mood.
If you can’t tell, I’m in a mood now. I’ve been working on an Anatomy lab for more than 3 hours. I need a break. I’m about to start dinner, but first, I wanted to write. Even if no one reads this, I’ll have poured my heart onto the page, and it will have done what I needed.
So here it is. A life update. Just to let people know how it’s going.
Work is good. It’s busy, but good. There are so many amazing benefits that come with my job and with being a military member. Even the worst days can’t compete with the struggles of my old job because I remember all the amazing things the Air Force has given me. Yes, it’s tough. It’s tiring. I struggle to find the energy to write, especially during the week when so many other things need attention. But it’s worth it. Not a day goes by that I am not grateful the opportunities I’ve been given.
School… College. It’s different than back in the day when I was a regular, full-time student. The curriculum is far more challenging, and it won’t be getting any easier. Next semester will involve Stats and Human Anatomy/Physiology II. Those are classes to scoff out, and I’ll still be working full time. Thank heavens that spring time has lots of snow and various days off throughout so I should be able to find plenty of 3-day weekends to make things manageable.
Still, I love being in school. It is one of my most favorite things to do and I would never stop if I didn’t have to. If I stay on this path, I’m set to be in school for at least another 10 years. Maybe more. You never know how long it could take to accomplish your goals. My grades are high right now. I’m probably going to pull an “A” in Nutrition and Anatomy I. It makes me ecstatic. I did not earn great grades on pre-reqs the first go around. I’m a different person now and I’m striving for excellence.
Life is where I have lost balance. There is no balance. I’ve dedicated my whole world to school and work and it’s beginning to take its toll. The negative effects are showing too. Mike and I never have time together anymore. That isn’t just me though. That’s his hours at the post office too. Still, our marriage is suffering because of it. We don’t have time for fun. I still make time to cook and bake, which I do enjoy, but I’ve already discussed how my real outlet, writing (and reading) has almost ceased entirely. I need to work on this. I am excited for this holiday season because I so badly want to do fun things and the semester ends on December 15ish. I am ready for it. No classes to worry about. Work slows down because everyone will be leaving. And I’ll be here. READING, WRITING, RUNNING AROUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON WITH ALL THE NONSENSICAL NONSENSE I CAN MUSTER.
So yeah… Life needs work, but… I’m working on it.
You can read our full debt pay-off journey on this blog, and from the looks at it, it seems like we’ve made huge progress. And we have… But it still isn’t enough. We’re still struggling financially because we have this problem with telling ourselves no. My husband is particularly bad at this, and I hate telling him no, so we spend.
And I have a feeling the house is going to be the same way. We want a house so bad, and we still have so many little debts… SO MANY. And nothing is going to be cheaper because… Denver. So… we’ll make the sacrifice and pay a little more for a bigger space and a lot of responsibility. I’m super excited to take it all on, but there’s also that nagging fear in the back of my mind that will slow down our debt pay-off, and I know what every personal finance guru in the world is saying right now and I’m just gonna ignore it because I want a house. So… that’s finances. The next 6 months are just gonna be heck.
And that is my life. That is how life is going right now and probably every day from now until May. Please stick around for the details. It’s going to be ever-so-dramatic. Thanks for reading!!!! Is there anything dramatic happening with you?